Every once in a while, you can have these moments-made-eternity, a phrase I got from Sheldon Vanauken’s book A Severe Mercy that means exactly what it sounds like: a moment lifted up out of the long ribbon of time into whatever it is that’s outside it.  When you are swimming at night with your friend in the ocean, and suddenly you notice it’s shimmering with phosphorescent life.  When you go up a hill with your love to see a meteor shower and one lights up the whole sky for three seconds.  When a fight between you and your friend, batting The Fault back and forth with The Hurt, hitting harder and harder, slows and changes before you realize what’s happening and suddenly you are quitting that game, remembering with a single movement the participation of God, in the trajectory of every word.  In that moment, you remember eternity, and that that was what you were crying for.   I had a conversation like this last night.

Here’s an excerpt from Mumford & Sons’ song The Cave, a song I have come to love: and I know it’s lame to post lyrics, but it’s just so … oh … :

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

Cause I have other things to fill my time
You take what is yours and I’ll take mine
Now let me at the truth
Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears
I can see widows and orphans through my tears
I know my call despite my faults
And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope
And I won’t let you choke
On the noose around your neck

And I’ll find strength in pain
And I will change my ways
I’ll know my name as it’s called again

So come out of your cave walking on your hands
And see the world hanging upside down
You can understand dependence
When you know the maker’s land

So make your siren’s call
And sing all you want
I will not hear what you have to say

Cause I need freedom now
And I need to know how
To live my life as it’s meant to be